Okay, so. I’ve been doing the whole “30 Days of Thankful” thing on FB. Today, Day 12, I said I’m thankful for my two previous marriages.
Yes, I said TWO. Moving on…
I am Thankful for my two previous marriages because they showed me what I DIDN’T want in a marriage. What I wasn’t willing to compromise. The pieces of myself I wasn’t willing to give away in the name of domestic bliss.
I walked away from these marriages because I wasn’t happy. I KNEW there was better. Marriage shouldn’t have been so much WORK. Shouldn’t have made me feel like I was suffocating every minute of every day.
Marriage shouldn’t have made me miserable. So I left. The decision to leave wasn’t easy. Okay, well, the decision to leave my SECOND marriage wasn’t easy. Leaving husband #1 was a joy. Leaving #2 was a different story. There were kids, hurt feelings, and tears.
I left anyway. I left because staying felt like it would have been the end of me.
So I am thankful. I am thankful that those relationships taught me something about myself. I’m thankful that they taught me something about the Wife I wanted to be and the Husband I wanted to have.
I think I’ve managed nicely.